November 2012
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October 2012
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October 2011
1 post
it's been a while..
since i have posted on here. because for the time being my life had been awesome, and now out of the blue my parents kicked me out for a while and my boyfriend told me he doesnt know if he loves me anymore
i am devastated. i am heart broken. i feel so worthless and shitty and useless and pathetic. i want to tell him i dont know if i love him anymore or not but that would be a lie. i want to be...
September 2011
0 posts
i feel like my head is spinning
my body is tensing up
im shaking…
i feel like i am going to throw up…this is too much to handle
just because i have known that this was coming doesnt make it any easier
i love you papi…please hang in there until i can make it down to say goodbye..
August 2011
3 posts
People always say that every cloud has a silver lining. They say to believe and never give up hope. To stay strong and cheer up, those things will improve. They make it seem easier than it really is. But what happens when things don’t improve? Believing in hope is one of the hardest things in life to do. I know from experience, I’ve hit rock bottom and it is the most gut wrenching, awful,...
im back!
hello tumblr…i have missed you :) no worries though…i am back!
first day of school went well. staying up mostly all night so i can see the most amazing boyfriend in the world in 4hours..then we sleep all day! (YAY!)
this year is gonna be good
June 2011
4 posts
i never believed in love. never believed that two people could be happy together and not want anyone else. never believed that someone could make your hearts race and your stomach do flippy flops and makes you melt inside. i never believed that one person could come into my life one day and the next be all i could think about. and then i met you. you came into my life and swept me off my feet and...
birthday plans..
so i turn 19 today.
its weird, i feel older then i should.
spending the morning catching up on grey’s anatomy and vegging out, jared is taking me out tonight :)
i meet the the Avanties Dome tomorrow at 9 to look over the venue for my event on New Years eve. I have one week to put together a proposal for the childrens home.
i guess i should work on that today, but i feel like doing...
May 2011
28 posts
it is so hard to stay awake right now.
desperately trying to get season 3 of grey’s anatomy downloaded so i can watch a couple of episodes before i go to jareds house (for some very much needed cuddle and sleep time!)
im going to end up getting there and passing out as soon as i lay down >.< but at least when i wake up, the first thing i will see will be his beautiful eyes and...
Put good use to those old, loose shirts.
Imma try this.
once upon a time
a girl met this boy. and he made her feel alive. the end <3
i don’t mean to jump into things so quickly. i just like you a lot and im afraid if i take things slow you will lose interest and realize how incredibly lame and boring i really am.
dear mom,
the reason i don’t tell you things anymore is because i feel like you don’t care. and this makes me sad.
it has been
33 days and i have not had a panic attack or any nightmares :)
this is a new record for me.
i am excited <3
New Found Glory
is playing a music festival in Ohio in July.
thinkin bout gettin VIP passes for you and I since I know they are your all time favorite band. it’s gonna cost me over $300 for the tickets…you can NEVER know this….you may beat me >.< but you sure are worth it to me. that’s saying a lot.
love love love love love love
you are my best friend. my rock. the one person i can count on. the one who is always there for me. you build me up when the world knocks me down. you make me feel alive. you make me feel unstoppable. you make me feel so incredible. when im with you time stops, im not anxious or nervous or scared, i can take on the world. i love you, at least i think i do. ive never been in love before but if i...
last night
i had this dream
and i was on a boat. and it was late at night, and the moon was huge and the stars covered the night sky. and there was soft music playing and i was in a pretty dress and there was a boy and he was singing to me and we danced, and we just stayed on this boat all night and we talked and laughd and got to know each other. it was someone i had known for a while but never like this....
summer to do list
1. hiking through McNuaghten 2. spend a week on the East Coast 3. Try something new 4. take 100 pictures of 100 strangers 5. go to warped tour 6. go to cornerstone 7. go to lolapolooza 8. go camping 9. watch the sunrise 10. have a dance party 11. Work with an accomplished/serious band 12. go on a picnic at night 13. hike up that hill off of 24 by east peoria 14. plant a tree 15. bury a time...
it frustrates me so much when people get everything handed to them while i struggle and bust my ass to get ahead..
officially
need an I-pod that is more then an 8 gig for my music >.<
the sad part is that i could sit here for the next 2 days downloading and still come up with bands i want on my i-tunes…and while i download all of this music, almost none of it includes smaller or unsigned bands…thats probably another 6gigs or more….i need a new hard drive :D
i wish you knew just how much i loved you.
:3
sometimes people give me their homework so i can copy it and then hang out with them and work on other projects with them :3
i want to get super flustered around someone one day and instead of them letting me babble on and on like a retard i want them to push me against a wall and kiss me to shut me up.
i should be working on homework. instead i am sneaking out to see you. i swear i dont have feelings for you..
i wish you would understand that one of the main reasons why i keep mentioning the fact that i want to move is because i am dying for you to beg me to stay.
taking the manager of the band ‘Disturbed’, T.J. Segan, out to dinner next time I am in Chicago.
Yup. My life rocks, and I am cooler then you! ;) <3
its not too often that i let people in. because when i do, they run. they leave. and they take a part of me with them when they do. i am so scared of people that i don’t know how to react. im shy and awkward and i think the worst of myself.
but you, you make me want to be a better person. i let you in on a whim. i figured, hey i have nothing else to lose. and it has been one of the best...
one way or another
i only have 4 months left in this town <3
and the problem with me leaving is that i don’t want anyone to know. i just want everyone to wake up one day and realize that they haven’t heard from me in months and that i am no longer around.
if i dont tell you, you cant convince me of why i should stay. this is not going to be easy… but, i refuse to get close to anyone else that lives remotely close. i want to cut them all...
fivefooteightordietrying-deacti asked: Thanks for the follow c:
pleasepleasepleaseplease
please be understanding
please be accepting
please think its totally awesome that i have to honor my comitments
please please please please wait for me. its only a couple of more months, then i swear to you, i will be on the next train out there with a bag filled with my things and i will start all over.
i will leave this town behind and never look back!
just please wait for me. it would...
April 2011
38 posts
and no matter how hard i try, it’s still not good enough.
Fuck yes.
bbeaunerr:
fuck you.
seriously. fuck you. you are a piece of shit anyways. don’t fucking talk to me.
oh hai
you’re a piece of shit.
that is all.
i really really really feel like im destined to be alone. im almost 19. ive never been on a date. ive had two “official” boyfriends, all the others have been boys who dont want to commit to me that i end up wasting months on hoping that if i stick around long enough they will realize we are perfect together,..they never do. im never going to be asked out. im never going to go on a...
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